teenage poem to teenager lovers

 I've tried to hate you and sometimes I almost believed in it
Yeah, almost, and that was the worst
Cause thinking that I was getting over you it was losing myself
And now I'm stuck in a web of terrible thoughts and some bad attitudes.
And you even know about it
Some nights I wondering what are you doing and how you are
 but it makes me feel like I care more than I want to
After all this time I still fool myself and I want you here
All this time what I really want was you here
But you couldn't
You can't.